Reading this
book was like a breath of fresh air at a petrol station, at first you like the
smell of the fumes but eventually it becomes too much that you're ready to hop
into your car and head home. Aside from the petrol fumes, this is a great book
that teaches you to distinguish between the things in life that make you and
the superficial things that will eventually break you. That's not all you'll
learn though! One thing my Literature teachers will love is that it has a
Bildungsroman (coming of age) plot, through the novel we journey through Ezra's
transformation in self discovery and understanding his place in the big
plan of the universe.
The first book I read on my brand new Kindle Fire HDX (minor plug in) and I
managed to read it in a couple hours, it was a very easy read but I found the
ending a tad disappointing if I’m being honest. I think both titles are very
fitting, ‘Severed Heads, Broken Hearts’ for the obvious reasons that become
apparent after reading the first chapter, but I find ‘The Beginning of
Everything’ is more fitting once you’ve finished the book and realised how
incomplete the novel really is.
A friend told
me I just had to read this new book she found and after she compared the male
lead to Augustus from 'The Fault in Our Stars' I was definitely
intrigued. I’ve never been a fan of books that are told through a male’s
perspective, usually I find myself disjointed from all feelings as I can’t
relate; but Robyn Schneider wrote this story so well that I simply couldn’t put
it down until I knew what happened to Ezra. It’s weird yet almost refreshing to
have the male protagonist be vulnerable and exposed. I must admit I was rather
sceptical to have this book compared with TFiOS, given what a great read that
was, Severed Heads, Broken Hearts had a very high standard to live up to.
Most
unconventionally this story was told through the view point of the “popular
jock” of high school, rarely is it ever done and I felt like I was allowed into
this elitist world that no novelist I have read had dared to delve into. I
found it invigorating to read through the mind of someone I would have
otherwise considered a “snobbish douche” but Schneider presented Ezra as a
human who knew his flaws but didn't act on them was quite interesting, he was
consciously aware when he went back to his old friends that he would be
unfulfilled emotionally but they satisfied a superficial hunger he had. Ezra’s
character was perfectly imperfect.
The book for me was divided into three main sections: pre- accident, post-
accident and post Cassidy.
Pre-Accident
I liked the
growth from charming elementary Ezra to high school douche. One striking
quality about Ezra was that he knew he was merely existing, but continued to do
so.
Post-Accident
Degeneration
isn't the right word, more like transformation from Tennis Star to
"crippled" debate team member I was initially misguided when I
thought that Cassidy was fundamental turning point for Ezra’s whole life but
she wasn’t. It was only when I finished reading did I finally understand that
not all teen fiction is shrouded by the fact that a relationship, no matter how
toxic or consuming, can solve everything because it cannot. Ezra’s
accident gave him a new sense of clarity for what he wanted out of life, he
read his first book! That is huge by my standards.
Post-Cassidy
After reading
it I found it really hard to understand Cassidy and her intentions, she seems
unnecessarily interesting by the time you finish the book you realised her
presence wasn’t really unimportant. Though at times I found reading the novel
utterly frustrating, Schneider’s mad portrayal of a female somewhat protagonist
had a method to it. She was just a lesson Ezra had to learn to continue his
journey through life. This was most definitely a story of change and choice. As unsatisfied as the
ending made me feel, I’m glad it did. It may not have had a complete ending but
neither has Ezra’s fictional life. He is still out there in fictional college going out with fictional girls and hopefully he’ll become whatever his
fictional heart desires. “Had we but world enough time” perhaps we would
find out how young Ezra Faulkner’s life turns out, but the answered questions
left me feeling vacant yet completely engrossed. The main reason
why I enjoyed reading this book so much was the way I was able to relate to it,
I may not have been in a life changing car accident but sometimes it feels like
“I didn’t know who I was anymore, or who I wanted to be” but I'm having fun
trying to figure it out.
There were so
many great things written in this book that I could have literally gone from
cover to cover with a highlighter. Here are some great ones I just could not
leave out:
"Your silence is judging me"
"I thought of hydrocarbon chains in organic chemistry; the same
thing upside down, and how knowing to look for it changes your whole
perspective"
"She leaves a trail of broken hearts"
"Destined to forever be someone whose defining characteristics was lost forever at seventeen rather than found"
"I’m the proverbial ostrich that kicks sand in your face, my friend"
"The world tends towards chaos"
"History is filled with fictional people. And even the epigraph
Fitzgerald placed at the beginning of The Great Gatsby is by a writer
who doesn’t exist"
"We have all been fooled into believing in people who are entirely imaginary – made up prisoners in a hypothetical panopticon."
"Isn’t whether or not you believe in imaginary people; it’s whether or
not you want to"
"Outwardly mocking, but never quite to the point of not wanting to
participate"
"I wondered what things became when you no longer needed them, and
I wondered what the future would hold once we'd gotten past our personal
tragedies and proved them ultimately survivable"
"You see perfection, I see panopticon"
“Oscar Wilde once said that to live is the rarest thing in the world,
because most people just exist, and that’s all. I don’t know if he’s right, but
I do know that I spent a long time existing, and now, I intend to live.”
I intend to live because you don't know when personal tragedy will attack, will you even be ready?.
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